ambivalent
adjective uk/æmˈbɪv.ə.lənt/ us/æmˈbɪv.ə.lənt/
（心情）矛盾的；模棱两可的，含糊不定的
having two opposing feelings at the same time, or being uncertain about how you feel
I felt very ambivalent about leaving home. 要离开家了，我心里喜忧参半。
He has fairly ambivalent feelings towards his father. 他对父亲的感情很矛盾。
an ambivalent attitude to exercise 既想锻炼又怕吃苦的态度
ambivalence
noun [ U ] uk/æmˈbɪv.ə.ləns/ us/æmˈbɪv.ə.ləns/
矛盾心理
the state of feeling of being ambivalent
her ambivalence towards men 她对男性的矛盾心理